I have a committee meeting on Tuesday, and I sent Dr. Hecht my slides to her a week early. She told me that she was sick of seeing those slides, and she never wanted to see those slides again. She also told me that I would have to get it right eventually, even if she had to “beat the shit out of me”. So, I redid all of my slides and cut out a lot of the background because she told me I don’t need to have that in my talk, just very brief. I spent the last two days working on nothing but that, and I sent them to her today. I didn’t really want to be at work today since I was sick today, but I was there.
I am supposed to be taking tomorrow off because I need to pack and start moving things to the new apartment. But, I got an email from Dr. Hecht telling me that I needed to put half of my old slides back in, and I needed to come in tomorrow at 11 to go over it with her. I’m so pissed; I hope I get her sick.
I had been excited because I had worked out a plan to get an unpaid internship that I could work 1 afternoon a week and after hours as an assistance for a clinical research coordinator. I reapplied for my training grant, which is a clinical and translational grant. It was kind of an excuse for me to have my internship. However, the training grant requires that I stay until January though, if they keep me on it, I have to be on it for 9 months from April or else they would lose money. Honestly, I thought that it wouldn’t be a problem; I could make it until then. But after tonight, I think I need to call them back and withdraw my renewal application. I want out as soon as possible. I hope that I will still be able to work out an unpaid internship, but it’s not worth putting up with this shit until January. It’d make getting a job later easier, but I just don’t think I’d make it without snapping…
